Went to confession just now.
And it was about the most wonderful confession I have ever experienced :) (not that I've been to a lot!) Father Ian was very welcoming and cheerful and nice. I can only describe our conversation as comfortable, sincere, and mind-awakening.
Once again, I learnt that I was slowly leading myself into a trap of hecticness and selfishness, having no time for anything or anyone else but myself. But of course, God is infinite. And it is in this infinity of forgiveness that I find peace. It says in the bible that God "lavishes" us with LOVE. And oh-how-so-true it is!!! If you can count your blessings each day, even small blessings.. you could just spend hours and hours thanking the Lord for everything!
The fact that I'm studying here now is one of the indescribable BIG blessings in my life!! I know now that feeling guilty about my sins isn't a good thing at all. The Lord doesn't want us to dwell on guilt or fear of Him, but He wants us to wake up and realize His everlasting Love and Forgiveness for us! He wants us to learn to LOVE again.
And it was about the most wonderful confession I have ever experienced :) (not that I've been to a lot!) Father Ian was very welcoming and cheerful and nice. I can only describe our conversation as comfortable, sincere, and mind-awakening.
Once again, I learnt that I was slowly leading myself into a trap of hecticness and selfishness, having no time for anything or anyone else but myself. But of course, God is infinite. And it is in this infinity of forgiveness that I find peace. It says in the bible that God "lavishes" us with LOVE. And oh-how-so-true it is!!! If you can count your blessings each day, even small blessings.. you could just spend hours and hours thanking the Lord for everything!
The fact that I'm studying here now is one of the indescribable BIG blessings in my life!! I know now that feeling guilty about my sins isn't a good thing at all. The Lord doesn't want us to dwell on guilt or fear of Him, but He wants us to wake up and realize His everlasting Love and Forgiveness for us! He wants us to learn to LOVE again.
Christmas is coming, and Advent is a time to prepare for the coming of the Lord. But what does it all really mean?? Advent.. a time for reflection.. but most of all, a time for Longing. Longing for the coming of Christ. For the presence of God. For that special touch from heaven. What is Christmas all about??? Now I can tell you that. Christmas is a love story between me and the Lord. A love story between YOU and the Lord! The coming of Christ.. It is a simple love story of a God who wants to come close to us, who practically came down to earth to tell us face to face: I love you. How deep is that love? Deep enough to die on the cross.
Alright, so that was ages ago. What is THIS Christmas all about then? This Christmas this year? Well.. the love story is not done yet. Part 2, Part 3, or Part 4..5...... as many parts as you like. It's really not done yet because in all love stories, someone says 'I love you' wholeheartedly and the other person reponses with the same enthusiasm: 'I love you too'. Where is the response for OUR love story? When can we ever (if ever) express the same love back in return?
So Christmas is the time for us to renew ourselves, to try again with more effort than last year... to try again and again to look into the face of our Saviour who came down to earth to express his love for us, and to finally respond : I love you too, Jesus, as wholeheartedly as He did.
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